Saturday, February 28, 2009

I've received a hand drawn piglet in my mailbox today along with my parcel that I order online.
kind of surprised I must say,no name,no words,just that piglet face.
Maybe ppl slotted it into the wrong mailbox ba:/
have to be it:)

told Wilson Wee a few days ago that I want to go to SP open house 2010.
seem too early to be thinking about this now,but have a gut feeling that my needs will be greatly fulfilled there.
don't understand me?haha,it's ok.

I wrote at ;;11:55 PM

Thursday, February 26, 2009

I pass my geography!!
kind of come as a shock to me,because I did'nt study for it.
I gave up on it during geog lesson,and only read through the notes halfway after sch(20 min)
exactly half of my classmate failed.
thanks God for the pass.

chem test is on tomorrow,and it tested heavily on mole concept,
drat,I have to pray till i understand-.-
it's so hard>.<

I wrote at ;;10:25 PM

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

my chinese e-dictionary died on me ytd,when I am suppose to have a COMMON compo test today.great.
went to school despite having fever,because I don't want to miss out any of my 2 common test today..
don't wish to stay back after school the next day for retest you see>.< class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">rapidly,O:
my source A answer was totally different from the few ppl i asked..
It AL QAEDA,NOT JI..I'm sure of it..
and are we suppose to show what the mousetrap,cheese represent?
I did'nt do that..
and I don't even understand the last question..drat,and that like half of the mark gone alr..
damn,I hope there a retest.I can't fail my one and only SS common test like that..

I wrote at ;;10:41 PM

Friday, February 20, 2009

extract from a msn convo:

wilson wee tian wei. says (11:19 PM):
michelle like hong wei
wilson wee tian wei. says (11:19 PM):
i will jump straight!

wah..chill man!:x

I wrote at ;;11:33 PM

Your Love is Based on Commitment
You believe that love is something that develops and grows.
You don't believe in love at first site, and you never mistake lust for love.
For you, love is about mutual devotion, respect, and understanding.
You don't feel comfortable in a relationship, unless you're both in it for the long run.

Why your love can last: You don't take commitment lightly - or leave relationships easily

Why your love can fail: You're so committed, you often can't see the most obvious problems in your relationship
What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatisyourlovebasedonquiz/">What Is Your Love Based On?


wow,how true!

I wrote at ;;10:53 PM

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

I like Yuelin
(if only he know,and like me too..)

bug off everyone,
I need to be alone.

I wrote at ;;11:44 PM

Monday, February 16, 2009

I finally got a chance to repay wilson wee today:)
good luck yeahs?with your relationship with michelle.
I hope she will appreciate your efforts,and grow to love you more.
It will be a perfect ending..if we manage to 凑合 both the fairfield-romance again,if you get what I mean:]

I wrote at ;;9:48 PM

I had been struggling with myself today.
I still don't know whether I should take up an additional O level sub,
I don't know whether it too late to start..
I struggled with whether i should drop my F&n just to take this up.

Everything is in a daze,everything is blurred.

It feel as seem as my whole mind is going to dominate over me,
going to devout me..

I asked around for advice,I searched the library records,
I close my eyes and pray earnestly and in desperation for an answer in between interval.
I don't even care when I got a nasty comment from Miss poh about my chinese compo(well,I wrote that compo when I was crying,as mentioned in my previous entry)

well,what I do know is that I NEED to come up with the decision tomorrow,
going to talk to Mrs Ang tomorrow,hopefully something will come out of it..
:(

I wrote at ;;9:09 PM

Sunday, February 15, 2009

NEW BLOG,NEW BLOG!!
visit http://loving-ruralkunming.blogspot.com/
will be doing updates on both blog through:)

I wrote at ;;5:38 PM

I feel so much better now that I talked to someone about it..
does take a heavy load off my mind.
well,i think I will go ahead with my decision and hope i don't end up with plays.
"Such an apparition, appearst in front of me!'

"I have almost forgot the taste of fears;
The time has been, my senses would have cool'd
To hear a night-shriek; and my fell of hair
Would at a dismal treatise rouse and stir
As life were in't: I have supp'd full with horrors;
Direness, familiar to my slaughterous thoughts
Cannot once start me. "

"Give sorrow words: the grief that does not speak
Whispers the o'er-fraught heart, and bids it break. "

"Fair is foul, and foul is fair.
Hover through the fog and filthy air."

sound cool to me((:

I wrote at ;;4:30 PM

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

I was late for school today..
left house at 7:30,because I can't find that freaking school tie..
as i was walking to school,everyone was giving me that "shouldn't she be in school right now"look,
purposely walked the long way to school to avoid being seen,was the second last to step into the school,have to sit in a new row at the latecomer's corner,and aww,he is not late.
made to sing the national anthem,recite the pledge and pick up rubbish-.-

today also marked the first lesson of Mr raj SS lesson,really dislike his style a lot..
was suppose to teach us about globalisation,but instead,tell us to name 5 car,food,Multi-national companies,home appliances from diff countries.
group work somemore!must work with those nasty ppl infront of me-,-
I never contribute thought,they took so long to think of the answer for MNCs,Shangri-la international hotels la!still got Nike,subway,etc etc lo.

okay,I shall stop here.
there chem and F&n test tomorrow,and I have'nt even started studying.
and i have not even done my homework too.
need to go buried my head in them soon..
till then..

I wrote at ;;8:46 PM

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

compared to yesterday,I am feeling better now.
still having that terrible feeling inside me,but alas,I have to blame myself for liking him..

Chinese lesson today is fun:)
Miss poh read to us some of the "very funny","not-so-good" and "excellent" compo written by some of us on the topic“令我最难以忘怀的事”
a lot of them wrote about their first love,which I have never attempted in my whole life partly because I am bad with words,and personally I think..爱只能体会,却难以描绘的:)

but as she move on,my heart sank,"如果你没有去过一个地方旅行,千万不要乱写” and I go,omg,该不会是我的吧?

but it turn out to be someone(note the irony!) who wrote that 他早上到了中国的万里长城,下午到浙江吃午饭,晚上就坐火车到上海去,那一天的行程令他难以忘怀..
it like,wow!how did he/her manage to go to 3 provinces in just a day?!

but anyway,I wrote about child smuggling in Yunnan,and passed:))
haha,guess my urge to include yunnan in anything and everything really helps!

I wrote at ;;10:07 PM

Monday, February 9, 2009

got tagged with this funny quiz by someone who ask me not to link him/her
shall do it because it take my mind off certain stuffs.

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:Esther,tortoise,skinny piggy(which I am not?)

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU'VE HAD:hmm,you mean on screen personall?

THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 33 MINUTES:
sing
cry
stare blankly at the computer screen

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
hmm,

THREE THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:that I am stupid.

THREE THINGS YOU ARE AFRAID OF:
-loving someone whom I am not supposed to
-maths
-battlefield of my mind


THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
Green T-shirt, blue short, blue spec

THREE IMPORTANT OBJECTS:
my handphone,bible and my notebook

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
none at the moment

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
computer,computer and computer!
okay la,my iriver and books also.

THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
fall in love?
excel in exam
GO TO YUNNAN!!=p

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
omg,err..明天的香格里拉,少年 and 想见你.

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
hmm.
that a good question!
I want to own a tortoise paradise!
err,try to persuade my dad to buy more phone!!
and go YUNNAN of course!

THREE THINGS YOU REGRET:omg,a lot..

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
Love,trust and patience

THREE IMPORTANT THINGS YOU'RE GIVING TO THE WORLD:
nothing important..except for the fact that we're contributing to Global warming..

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX:
physical things?err..I don't look at that.
oh,but I won't mind if he can look like Mr edwin cho too!:)

THREE EMOTIONAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX:
err..must be strong(mentally I mean),love God(is this counted?) and..can't think of any currently.

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
MATHS,MATHS AND MATHS!!

THREE THINGS YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST:
telok kurau primary school,yangke and guys from sichuan and of course,ahem:)

THREE REASONS WHY YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE:
no why.it happened naturally.

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES:
singing,slacking,gaming..

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
GO YUNNAN!
Do SOCIAL STUDIES HW.
BURN MY MATH TXTBK,WORKSHEETS(opps!)

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:teacher,missionary and full-time volunteer,and oh ya!a neurologist.

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR HOLIDAY:
as stated above,YUNNAN!YUNNAN AND YUNNAN!
opps,3 different place?
err,New zealand and seoul then(:

THREE CARTOON CHARACTERS:
Shin chan,doraemon,spongebob squarepant

THREE BOY'S NAMES:
Russell
andrew
Wilson

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
sing hallelujah!!

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ (OR DIE PAINFULLY):
omg,err..Russell,Le tong and Jingxiong
sorry yeah?(:

I wrote at ;;9:00 PM

I cried myself to sleep ytd,woke up feeling lethargic and crushed.
choked on my breakfast
wrote my chinese compo w/o with a really foul mood,told my mum to try not to talk to me.
told her that I don't feel well and may scream at her unintentionally if she talk to me.

dragged my feet to school,still struggling with my tears.
did not want to talk to anyone at all,avoided them.
when ppl talked to me in class,I practice ignorance.

do some talking only in the school library,
when the sec 3 boy with the chubby face asked me to visit a website with interesting graphics.
I give him that face, =.=
and another when the boy with white spec suddenly appeared beside me,and talked to me.
ended both conversation hastily.

I skipped cca today too,after Gideon chat to me on msn about lijiang,it does make me feel slighter better(only slightly).He will be going there this june,to help out in an orphanage.I don't think I be able to make it,we sec 4 will still have extended lesson during the june hols.
And he may not make a trip to Kunming too,so it pointless.
Without Kunming,I rather not go.

blah,i miss you):
please do try to understand,why I like you.

I wrote at ;;8:22 PM

Sunday, February 8, 2009

你的爱,如此温柔,超乎我心所求
这样大有能力的主,既捧我在手掌心上
你的爱,如此圣洁,使我无力报答
恩典高过我地生命,学习你谦卑的样式
背起我自己的十之架

I wrote at ;;9:55 PM

please understand,
I do this because i see a future,not an end.

I wrote at ;;4:49 PM

Saturday, February 7, 2009

second post of the day is to answer what Junhao asked of me.

Firstly,do not think so highly of yourself,the boy I like is not you,and will never be you.

Secondly,stop asking me to sms you.I don't see a need to.And letting you know my new number will be a mistake.

Thirdly,the reason why i ceased msg-ing you is because you love to control me.

WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE THAT YOU CAN CONTROL ME?
please,there a limit to my tolerance level,for someone like you who try to restrict me,and not let me talk to other guys other than you,I have only two sentence for you:
oh!you like me?too bad,I don't like you.
it would be greatly appreciated if you would get out of my life.

I wrote at ;;11:19 PM

WILSON,
I PROMISE YOU THAT FROM TODAY ONWARD,HONGWEI WILL BE JUST A FRIEND TO ME.
NOTHING MORE THAN THAT.


I wrote at ;;10:33 PM

Friday, February 6, 2009

Pe lesson is fun,we played a 2-2 monkey game in the hall.I advanced from a monkey to the thrower in less than a minute(:
This is because lisa decided to throw a high ball to sharirah,and I caught it instead.
lisa and shyeni became the monkeys.
I did'nt manage to catch the first ball sharirah threw, it "flew" away,and lisa and shye ni ran after it.Me,determined not to let them get the ball,speed toward them and make a grab for the ball.All three of us fall lightly,but I got the ball((:
and there another time when she threw the ball too low,and shye ni,being taller than me,hit the ball.It went in the other direction and we both ran toward it..
BUT..
Junyang-high-kicked it away.
the ball settled somewhere,and that person(whom i can't rmb) kicked it away too-.-
the ball roll to where weiliang is..
Weiliang-picked it up and threw it.
then i go "walao",he realised that the ball is our,apologised.
Mr edwin cho,seeing shye ni stuck with being the monkey for so long taught her the right way to defend.but i wiped her out instead(:


boy,I'm really sorry.
I should not have told you all this at this point of time when we are just vaguely farmilar with each other..

Although you are just an online friend,but never in my life had I find someone that I like so much(more than hongwei,suprisingly)

I do not know how to put it in words..
but I do know that..every memory i had of you, was liking you

will you forgive me?I promise to talk to you lesser in msn,and texted you less often k?
sorry.

I wrote at ;;10:04 PM

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Directions:Mark the stupid things you've done, then add up the number of questions you marked. This test is out of 100 questions which means that the number you get as your score is your percentage.
1. [] Forgot to put the lid on the blender, turned it on, and had everything fly out 2. [] Gotten your head stuck between the stair rails 3. [] Broken a chair by leaning back in it 4. [] Had gum fall out of your mouth while you were talking 5. [x] Choked on your own spit while you were talking 6. [ ] Had people tell you that you are blonde when you're not, or had people tell you that your blonde highlights are going to your head 7. [] Been caught staring at your crush by your crush 8. [x] Have looked for something for at least 5 min then realized it was in your hand 9. [] Tried to push open a door that said pull 10.[] Tried to pull open a door that said push
Running total: 2

11. [ ] Have actually believed someone when they said that they knew how to make a love-potion
12. [x] Have hit yourself in the process of trying to hit something else
13. [] Have tripped and fallen UP the stairs (how is this possible?!)
14. [ ] Have actually exploded marshmallows in the microwave
15. [x] Have gotten gum stuck in your hair
16. [] Had gum fall out of your mouth while trying to blow a bubble
17. [] Have had the juice from a mini tomato squirt out and hit somebody else when you bit into it
18. [x] Have had your drink come out your nose because you were laughing so hard
19. [] Have called one of your good friends by the wrong name
20. [] Have skinned your toe because you were playing soccer or kickball with flip flops on or you were barefoot

Running total:4

21. [] Have put a sticker on your forehead, forgot it was there, and went out in public with it on
22. [] Have fallen out of a moving vehicle
23. [] Have run into a closed door... where's 24? (lol. Hey, you aren't stupid!)
25. [x] Searched for your cell phone while you were talking on it
26. [x] It has taken you longer than 5 min to get a joke
27. [] Have gotten your hair stuck in a blow dryer
28. [] Have gotten your hair stuck in a fan
29. [x] Tripped on a crack in the sidewalk
30. [] Said o'clock after saying how many min after the hour, example: 5:30 o'clock, or 6:15 o'clockRunning total: 19
31. [x] After someone told you that there was gum on the ground, you stepped in it
32. [x] Put on a white shirt even though you already knew it was raining outside
33. [x] Have ever walked up to a stranger because you thought they were someone else
34. [] Ever been kicked out of a grocery store/off their property
35. [x] Touched the stove, the curling iron, a hot pan, etc when its on, even though you knew it was hot
36. [x] Taken off your clothes to change into something else then accidentally put the old clothes back on
37. [x] Wondered why something wasn't working then realized it wasn't plugged in
38. [x] Put the cereal in the fridge, or put the milk in the cupboard
39. [x] Walked into a pole
40. [] Wore two different earrings or shoes by accident/stolen someones shoes by accident

Running total: 14

41. [] Put your shirt on backwards/inside-out without realizing it then left your house
42. [x] Tried to take a picture of someone's eye with the flash on [oops?]
43. [] Gotten a ring stuck on your finger because you put it on even though you knew it was too small
44. [] Walked out of the bathroom (stall) with toilet paper stuck to your shoe without realizing it
45. [x] Went to go do something/go get something, then when you got there, you forgot what it is was that you were going to do
46. [x] Picked up someone else's drink and drank out of it by accident when your drink was right next to it !
47. [] Fallen out of your chair while trying to pick something up
48. [] Have poked yourself in the eye
49. [] Have gotten in the shower with your socks still on
50. [ ] Melted your hairbrush while blow drying your hair

Running total: 17

51. [x] Have done enough stupid things to make a test
52. [x] Have accidentally stabbed yourself with a pencil
53. [] Have sung the wrong verse to a song without realizing it
54. [x] Have given an odd answer to a question because you didn't hear the question in the first place and didn't feel like asking what it was
55. [] Told someone you were the wrong age because you seriously forgot how old you were
56. [] Looked into an overhead purposefully while it was on
57. [] Got up early and got ready for school/work, then realized that you didn't have school/work that day
58. [] Forgot your own phone number
59. [] Have tripped on a cord after someone told you to watch out for it
60. [x] Have ever laughed at a joke that no one else thought was funny

Running total: 21

61. [] Done the Macarena to the electric slide or vice versa
62. [] Said funner then had someone make fun of you for it
63. [x] Have repeated yourself at least twice in the same sentence
64. [x] Brought up an inside joke with the wrong person
65. [x] Didn't do the backside of an assignment because you thought that there wasn't one because you had already looked and forgot that there was another side
66. [x] Did more work than you had to on an assignment because you didn't read the directions
67. [x] Corrected someone's grammar/pronunciation then figured out that you were the one that was wrong
68. [x] Put something in a special place so that you would remember where it was, then forgot where you put it
69. [] Put ice in your drink after the glass was full of liquid and had it splash out
70. [] Told a lie then forgot what it was that you had said and got caught

Running total: 27

71. [] When wearing goggles, you pulled them away from your face and let go so that they would come back and snap you in the face
72. [] Forgot to make sure that the lamp was off before you replaced the light bulb
73. [] Ran into a door jam
74. [] Told someone that you hardly ever do stupid things, then immediately did/said something stupid
75. [x] Told someone to watch out for something, then you were the one that ran into it
76. [ ] Have purposely licked playground sand
77. [] Have purposely and repeatedly flicked yourself with a rubber band
78. [x] Gotten so hyper that someone actually thought you were drunk when you weren't
79. [x] Have been so hyper you actually scared people
80. [] Put duct tape on your body then pulled it off to see if it would hurt

Running total: 30

81. [] Put duct tape on your hair/someone else's hair then pulled it off
82. [] Put a clothes pin/hair clip on your lip, figured out that it hurt, then did it again
83. [] Sat and wondered why men's dress shirts have a loop on the back
84. [] Made up a code name for someone so that you could talk about them to someone else and no one else would know who you were talking about
85. [] Have gotten a hairbrush stuck in your hair
86. [] Used the straw to blow the straw wrapper at someone
87. [] Shaved your tongue because you thought your taste buds looked funny
88. [] When at a restaurant, you used your spoon to fling stuff at people
89. [] Have flung forks at people in a restaurant
90. [] Tripped and made the waiter drop the food.

Running total: 30

91. [x] As you are writing, you move your head back and forth with your pen/pencil
92. [] Have drawn finger puppets on your fingers then named them
93. [x] Have wrapped someone in a roll of toilet paper
94. [] Have used somebody else's toothbrush without even realizing it wasn't yours
95. [] Have started telling a story and forget what you were talking about or what happened in the story
96. [x] Read a whole book but during the whole book you weren’t even paying attention
97. [] You have spelled your own name wrong before
98. [] When lying in bed you look for pictures in the texture of the ceiling
99. [] Have used your calculator as a form of communication in a class
100.[] Have popped a balloon in your mouth

Total: 33 gosh!, i'm that dumb?!
ps: for your info..
Q5:ahem!it just an accident..don laugh!
Q25:I thought I was talking on my house phone all along!>.<
Q26:okay,I admit I'm slow..I SAY STOP LAUGHING!):
Q35:eh?cereals are not supposed to be kept in fridge?
Q68:I have many special place..that why..
:D

I wrote at ;;10:02 PM

Monday, February 2, 2009

I brought rings..
for?

I wrote at ;;10:10 PM

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Dear God,

I don't know how I should start this,but I am feeling kinda terrible right now.

I had prayed,in the wrong way a year ago.Instead of praying that you give me enough strength for me forget hongwei,I prayed that you let me met someone else who will make my heart skip a beat again.

well,I met that someone.

But the probability of him liking me,is zero.

At first,I thought that it just a passing infatuation.

At first,i thought i "like"him because he is from China..

At first,I thought that I still love hongwei because up till now,I'm still so gaga over Yunnan,especially Kunming.

Sometimes I wonder,is this a joke?HE IS A ONLINE FRIEND,I have not even met him before.But i don't know why his words and actions bothered me so much..

He and I are worlds apart,he is everything that I am not.

He is althetic,musically inclined,smart,healthly,sociable..

and I am sickly(doctor had cited my neuro condition as a gone case),stupid,and physically weak.

I don't know what will his reaction when he read this,maybe fall off the chair?

or he may ignore,or guard himself against me?

Lord,I prayed that you will guide me as to how should i continue from here..

In Jesus name,I prayed.

Amen.

I wrote at ;;4:03 PM

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